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04 September 2008 at9:50 PM

BOOHOO people (:



Hmm . today is just a normal day but a tired day . i hadn't been having enough sleep because of the n levels & prelims stuff to concentrate with . Kinda tired still now . But its okay . I can handle it . Well , my mind is not really at ease right now . I have been reflecting through all my mistakes that i have done in the past . May it be the BIG mistakes or the SMALL mistakes that i have done has made me realise that i used to be a bad girl . i can't accept the fact that i was that bad last time . Yes , i regret . But its little too late . Things have been done . Mistakes have been done . I can't possibly undone it . Its impossible . If i have the chance to undo my mistakes , i would be greatful & i 'll promise to be a good girl . But that is obviously impossible . That wouldn't happened even if i wished for that . Pfft . Every human beings in this world make MISTAKES . No one in this world is PERFECT . Obviously . But why wouldn't people give a chance to the person that had made mistake to him/her , to try to proof to him/her that he/she wants to change . Why ? Why be so selfish & egoistic ?


Pfft . I just don't understand this world . This kind of people . They think that they are so damn perfect until they behave so cruel & mean to the person that has made mistakes to him/her . How i wished that everyone in this world doesn't have this kind of attitude . It would be far much more better to live on . Hmm . Another thing , GOSSIPS . Why does this happened aniwaes ? i wonder . Ya , i can't be lying to you readers that i have nvr been gossipings about others . In fact , i've done it before . But after awhile , i began to reflect & wonder . Why must we gossips about each other aniwaes . It won't bring us any good aniwaes . Haiya . The world is getting weird day by day . Hmm . My love for him is still there , strong enough . Though the cruel , mean , egoistic & unbearable things he had do to me , i think i can still handle it . But i kept wondering . Is he taking revenge on me ? Maybe he wants me to feel how he felt when he was treaten by me badly last time . Maybe i deserved this . But when will this end ? Will this be forever ? Sometimes i feel that im loving a wall , not a person . Sometimes i feel that my love was not being appreciated .


Is my age too early to fall in love ? Do i really know what does it mean by TRUE LOVE ? i need to find the answer quick . But for now , im still loving him to the fullest . Friends had been telling me to moved on . I wanted too . But it was hard for me . Maybe my love towards him is too strong . hmm . Hope he will forgive me one day , soon enough . Thats my wish . Or maybe i could proof to him that i am a different person now ? * wondering * . But will that happen eii ? hah . maybe it will one day . I just need to build self- confidence in myself & learn to be patience in doing things & handling small or even big situation . Yes ! i will ! hah ! i'll try my best , yay ! lolx . Aiteaite . My post for today is kinda longy leii . hah ! But i'm happy that i can let out of my thoughts in my precious bloggy . * thnkies bloggy * Okay ! Enough for today's post people . I'll be updating soon aye ! cherios humans !

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